Life in the forest: history and memory

Paula Burger

Paula Burger

Paula Burger, Night in the Forest.

Paula Burger, Night in the Forest.

Holocaust Awareness Institute, University of Denver

Reunited with their father, Paula and Isaac spend the remainder of the war with the Bielski partisans. Wolf Koladicki’s knowledge of the area is an asset to the group, and he is often sent on scouting and food gathering missions that keep him away for days or weeks at a time, leaving Paula and Isaac behind in the camp.

In the summer of 1942, the Bielski group is still small and has limited resources for its defense. Not everyone is in favor of taking in those who cannot fight or fend for themselves. Thanks to Tuvia Bielski’s charismatic leadership, his insistence on saving as many Jewish lives as possible will prevail.

During these early days, Paula experiences hostility on the part of some members of the group who are called upon to care for her and Isaac during their father’s prolonged absences from the camp. These episodes amplify the dangers of her everyday life after the horrors of the Nazi occupation and the loss of her home, her mother, and her grandmother. Her father is all she and Isaac have left, and their survival depends on him.

At just 7 years of age, Paula is faced with immense hardship and threats to her life. Decades later, certain events and aspects of her experience weigh more heavily in her memory. In this clip, Paula recalls that she and Isaac were the only children in the camp. Although there were a number of children in the Bielski group, Paula and Isaac were likely among the first to join.

Transcript

Paula Burger: The partisans was a group of Jewish people that had run away from the ghetto. The only people that were there were adults – young adults – because they were constantly on the move. They were constantly foraging for food, whether by stealing, by gun, by begging, whatever. There was a bigger ratio of men to women, and there were no other children. My brother and I were the only ones. The leader of this group was Bielski, Tuvia Bielski, who I understand there was written about that. I never read the book because I knew I was going to tell you the story and I really wanted to tell you my own memories. Not to read anything because my perceptions and fears and impressions were different – I’m sure they’re different for everybody, as a child I’m sure they’re even more different.

"I never read the book because I knew I was going to tell you the story and I really wanted to tell you my own memories."

USC Shoah Foundation Visual History Archive, Interview 10913

Out of necessity, men and women partisans form “forest” relationships that offer both protection and companionship. Some of these relationships will outlast the war, others will end with it. In order to ensure the safety of his children, Wolf needs a partner who can care for them while he is away from camp. He begins a mutually beneficial relationship with Chana, a woman also living in the forest. Chana's husband and children have been killed by the Nazis and she is alone; her attachment to Wolf gives her security. After the war, Wolf and Chana will marry and have children of their own. Chana’s relationship with Paula remains forever strained.

Excerpt from Paula’s Window

My father adhered to the partisan code, designed to ensure the group’s survival. The partisans had to run at a moment’s notice. Children, especially ones as young as we were, slowed them down. As long as Papa lived, we lived. If he died, we died. Our mother was gone. Without Papa, we would be alone – and potentially compromise everyone’s safety.

Papa needed a woman to care for his children. It didn’t take long to find her. Chana was small, frail, and somber. The Nazis had murdered her husband and children. After spending time together, my father and Chana became a couple. I know she loved Papa – that’s why she promised to watch over us. Otherwise Papa would have never consented to the relationship. But she never loved me. Whenever he was away, I felt desperately alone.

In retrospect, I understand Chana’s inability to love a child that was not her own. I could not replace her children. She could not replace my mother. Still, in all the years that Chana lived with us – throughout the war, after liberation, in the displaced persons camp, and Chicago – my stepmother never once hugged or kissed me.

Life in the forest is harsh, often bitterly cold, and always dangerous. The partisans forage for food and sleep in primitive camps, which they are often forced to abandon at a moment’s notice. Illness is common. There are doctors among the partisans, but medications, supplies, and food are scarce. The primary objective at all times is survival, even in the face of seemingly insurmountable odds.

Transcript

Paula Burger: Somehow we got through it. I – like – as many times as I’ve mentioned, I can’t help repeating—I have no idea why we survived. I remember as we would travel sometimes through the farmlands, and at dusk or whatever, you would hear dogs barking somewhere in the distance, knowing that there would be farms there. And the only wish I had was to sleep in a bed. To sleep in a house where somebody wasn’t trying to shoot me. It’s really hard to understand, I suppose at any age, why anybody would want to shoot you because you’re Jewish or Polish or Russian or whatever. I mean, this isn’t a choice we have, and especially for a child, for sure, it made no sense whatsoever, and I’m sure it didn’t make sense to adults, as well, but for a child, the injustice of it seemed so enormous. And, like I said, the constant thought was, it can’t be that nobody knows about it. Why would they not help? And, if there was one wish for me, as well as for most people in the circumstances, probably would be to tell ... to tell what happened to us.

I remember one time my father tried to teach me in Yiddish how to write my name. And, because, he figured, if he doesn’t survive and by some slim chance we survive, we wouldn’t even know who we are, because I couldn’t write at the time.

"I remember one time my father tried to teach me in Yiddish how to write my name."

USC Shoah Foundation Visual History Archive, Interview 10913

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